This prayer is best prayed several times and can be tailored to fit individual circumstances. The basic precepts of this prayer are derived from The Effects of Trauma and How to Deal With It by Jim Banks. The last paragraph is inspired by Blessing Your Spirit by Sylvia Gunter and Arthur Burk.
Father,
I come to You in weariness and disappointment. I have witnessed much betrayal and deceit in the heresy wars of the Anglican Communion. I, too, have been a sinner.
I have trusted too much in the institutional church and too little in You. I have trusted too much in church leaders and too little in You. I have trusted too much in my own efforts and too little in You. I have grieved too long for what might have been and trusted too little in You to raise up a substitute. I have harbored cold love in my heart and spoken in anger.
I have avoided those persons who disappointed or wounded me, especially _____. Even now, as I acknowledge this behavior, I still feel alienated from them. I leave them to Your judgment, Lord. I choose to forgive. Help my unforgiveness and release me from the torment of resentment and bearing grudges.
I forgive myself for not standing up to heresy decades ago, for not placing my full trust in You, and for not sharing Your love as I ought to have done.
Detach from me all unseen forces of Satan that have gained access to me through the trauma of these ecclesiastical conflicts.
In Jesus’ name, I release all of the residual effects of this trauma–physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. In particular, I release all memories of trauma, including lies, rejection, deceit, abandonment, harsh words, and curses. I require that these residual effects leave my body without harm or injury. I bless my immune system, hepatobiliary system, and renal system to clear away all toxins; foreign proteins; hormonal products; wastes of foods, alcohol, medications; or any other by-product of trauma within my body.
I release all long-term and short-term effects of stress, tension, and anxiety. I release all of the secondary vicarious trauma of watching godly Christians demeaned, dismissed, silenced, persecuted, and deposed.
Lord, will You shut down all access points and pathways through which Satan can torment me? I close the door to these access points, bar the door with the cross of Christ, and seal it with the Blood of Christ. If I have made inner vows in the midst of this conflict, please bring them to my consciousness so that I may repent of them. . . .
If there are any portions of my identity, God-given destiny, or being that I have denied, banished, or had stolen from me in this conflict, I call them forth. Father, I ask You to cleanse them in the Blood of Jesus, restore them to me, and re-integrate them into my spirit.
I declare that I no longer need to be in a heightened state of alertness for the Anglican Communion. You will resurrect the church, just as You resurrected Your Son, in a body that is qualitatively different.
Father, re-establish, synchronize, and reactivate the memories needed for my complete healing.
Bring back into balance all chemical, electrical, and magnetic communication paths within my brain, and restore them to optimal levels for stability.
Restore sweet, undisturbed, and rejuvenating sleep patterns.
Dismantle all dysfunctional automatic responses that I have gained secondary to this conflict–triggers, fears, phobias, and “push buttons.” Reorient the filing cabinet of my memories of this conflict. May I first go to the good memories, those that speak of value, purpose, belonging, and love.
If in any way, I have chosen to live in the past or the future, rather than in the present, as a result of the trauma I have received, reveal this to me so that I may repent and renounce those mindsets. . . . I choose to live in the present. I choose to not allow the past to define my future. Restore me to my proper place in time and cleanse my time from any defilement caused by sin.
When I fall asleep at night, I offer my spirit to You to receive everything I will need for the coming day. Teach me to pray.
I praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Before the foundation of the world, You planned for me. You nurture my spirit and watch over me. You have foreseen my pain. In Your love, You will transform the pain and negative things that I have experienced in the Anglican heresy wars into good things before the end of the story of my life. I do not know everything about who I am going to be or what I am going to do, but I am loved. I am a blessing to my family. I am a life-giver in the world. I am blessed by You. Amen.
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